| Come on Gotta be a Cool Kid!!!! |
[10 Oct 2005|01:20am] |
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"If you read this, even if we do not speak often, comment with one memory of me. It can be anything you want, good or bad. Just as long as it happened. Then post this on your livejournal. See what other people remember about you."
Woohoo, random question...gotta love it
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| When I'm gone don't fill the space that still belongs to me... |
[25 Aug 2005|11:37pm] |
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Cold, Sevendust, Seether |
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It has been a VERY weird last couple of days, not sure what my head is doing. Seems to be lost in the depths of itself and all of it's belongings. Some of these belongings hurt...(random info: start school next week, kind of can't wait. Keeps me and my mind occupied. Vaca was fun...ya)
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| It's a long time to nowhere |
[01 Aug 2005|10:00am] |
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I can't believe I'm actually leaving today, YAY!!! It is going to be a fun and very random 3 weeks. Well I'm off, this should be entertaining.
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| Complicated Questions with all these Complicated Answers |
[07 Jul 2005|12:42am] |
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Contemplating going friday seeing as how I was invited...I'd probably be better off not so other people can enjoy themselves, in which I most likely won't go, have a little more respect, and care for other people and their feelings..::shrug::.. On another hand I finished summer class and passed, yay me...I'm also leaving in the beginning of August for California. Wonder how that will go. Eh other then that it's the same old, still asking myself the same questions and not getting any answers, but thats how life is...whee for life....Well I am off, if you feel the need to say hi I have time to talk now that I"m out of school. Enjoy!!!
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| Weird |
[28 Jun 2005|09:32pm] |
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~*~Result nr 6~*~
Your power is: Transformation
Explanation: Unlike everyone else you
can change your body materia and transform into
anything (e.g. an animal). This can be used in
good purposes for infiltrating evil
headcuarters or adjust your physical abilities
by transforming and therefor do better in
battle. If turned to the evil side, a
transfomer could manipulate the "good
guys" by looking like their loved ones and
break them down.
As a person you are dissapointed with life. You
have not so many interests anymore and has
become depressed. Of course you can be happy,
but your happiness subsides quickly and don't
last very long. You isloate yourself from
people since you think they would only hurt
you, but some part just wants someone equal who
understands the pain. When you transform it
gives you freedom and you can be anything but
yourself. You often pity yourself but don't let
people come near and know what's going on with
you. But the thought of opening up and risking
being betrayed is too strong and intimidating
to even try.
Negative aspects: You carry much hate to
the world and yourself and in the long run this
could lead to dangerous thoughts
(suicide/cutting/killing) though the last one
is least likeable since you would probably just
have too much guilt.
What Power is Compatible With You?
brought to you by Quizilla
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[12 Jun 2005|06:01am] |
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WOW....longest work weekend ever....I just got home not too long ago from doing inventory at hot topic, and I went in at 5 mind you, plus worked earlier that day at my other job, and a double the day before, etc..etc...No need for details cuz it would be the same thing consisting of work and school...just figured I'd write cuz I was up, home, and found it amazing that I worked ALL night, kind of funny when you think about it....hahaha, Well now that I'm home I'm going to sit here and let my bed ingulf me to the point where I can't breath....GOOD NIGHT
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| Day off.... |
[29 May 2005|04:11pm] |
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So ya, today has came. Sunday my day off from EVERYTHING...and so far I HATE it...I mean don't get me wrong it's good to have a day off every now and then, but right now it doesn't exactly help me. When I sit and do nothing, or when I don't have to do anything, and can just sit with out having to go anywhere my mind starts turning, and yearning, and going CRAZY...smoke starts comming out and then my head hurts..HAH...No actually it does think but way too much, all it does is race through all of my mind, memories, thoughts, etc..etc..and then I get upset and depressed, but such as life. Which is why I like to be so busy all the time, it keeps my mind occupied, and my thoughts at bay so I don't worry about drifting away. Not to mention I found 3 cameras while cleaning my room, so obviously I dropped them off, but it was probably a really bad thing that I went and picked them up today to see what was on them...made my day a whole lot worse, made me feel completely ALONE. I just wish I would be told the TRUTH, thats all I fucking want. Questions answered, and my mind relieved. Oh well can't have it all. Might as well do what I've been doing and keep myself occupied....
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[15 May 2005|09:53pm] |
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Perfect Circle |
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So everythings been kind of awkward lately....not sure what to do with my life at this point. Guess thats where work comes in, been doing alot of that, but the moneys pretty good so whatever. Plus keeps my mind occupied and out of trouble. For a while now it seems like my entire life is one big lie. I'm finding out about stuff my family has said to me, when I was told something completely different before. Also things "friends" have said to me, when they say stuff different to other people. I HATE it, and it's starting to become very annoying and repetative. But I guess thats what life is...one giant lie, huh. Better get used to it now Netia, cuz thats what your living. Meh, enough of this. On a happy side I've been hanging out with some people, trying to keep my mind occupied while not at work. Not getting much sleep, but thats okay, who needs it...........I'm off time to go live the lie...
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| Why does your mind always find bad stuff to think about when your alone? |
[07 Apr 2005|10:30pm] |
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Cold, Hoobastank... |
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Wishing days would turn into nights alot faster then they are, or have no job so I can pass the time away with sleep. Better then constantly thinking all day long about this.....(unmentioned)....Maybe one day I'll wake up from this dream, or should I say nightmare... Well so long for now, gonna go lay back down again and try to pass this thing called time which takes FOREVER to move by....(Dad find a life)
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| <3 day |
[15 Feb 2005|12:00am] |
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A little late but hey Happy Valentines Day!!! Hope everyone had fun :)
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[02 Feb 2005|12:18am] |
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Mudvayne |
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Meh...started school. I like my classes just hate being there. I feel so alone, and by myself. I'm also feeling a distant...::shrug::...I can't talk to anyone in my family except my sister and even then it's weird. Falling, and falling will this ever end? I'm alice going down the rabbits hole to a world I never knew before.
DOWN DOWN DOWN....Good Bye
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| Benny & Joon |
[21 Nov 2004|12:27am] |
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Even the rain can't help me sleep.
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[10 Nov 2004|08:06pm] |
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Pukey...yay...I feel so sick, and I'm really bored but theres not much to do while throwing up. :( HELP ME!!!!
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| Thanks |
[17 Sep 2004|12:35am] |
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Cold or Dope (yay a sign for each of us) |
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Does anyone even care...hmm NO!!! Thats right just take what you want!!! ::screams:: All for none, and none for all...my saying...Just blow it off like it doesn't even matter...THANKS...FUCK THIS SHIT...
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[22 Aug 2004|12:09am] |
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HEY HEY HEY....GUESS WHAT....!!! I went to the static-x concert tonight...and it was AMAZING to say the least...if you didn't go you missed out on a great show. So yes right now I'm quite the hurt one and my head is sort of pounding but it was well fuckin worth it. Got kicked in the head and what not but it was fun. One of the best concerts I've ever been too...also soil and 2 other crazy bands played. Soil was really good and the other 2 bands were okay...As my friend jon van veen said the (all girl band) "was okay but deffinately fun to look at" LOL...I didn't think they were all that perty but hey I'm not a guy so whatev....Anyway my head hurts I have to work tomorrow so I should get some sleep.....the concert was FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NIGHT
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[10 Aug 2004|12:54am] |
Glad to know I FUCKED up your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~thanks~
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| Daily Life |
[09 Aug 2004|10:44am] |
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La La La...Wow people are really hmm annoying lately (not sure if thats the word I want but can't think of any other). As of late I have been working so much and thats an understatement heh. I really don't mind cuz I don't do anything else and no one really tries to do things with me so fuck it might as well work ya know. This past weekend I worked friday saturday and sunday morning as well as friday and saturday night, oh boy was that fun. So ya today I work from 2-7 not too bad but before hand like not too long ago I was calling around figuring I'd say hi cuz I've been working alot and it seemed that they didn't take the time nor want to talk to me ::shrug:: whatever...I'm just sick of this whole thing I put so much effort into trying to talk with "him" and he seems to do nothing. Well all I have to say is if what you told me is true your screwing up this part too. So have fun with your other friends cuz there the ones that your gonna have. I'm slowly being pushed out...gotta love it. Eh well I'm done complaining off to getting ready so I can cash check and put some in the bank as well as go to work. If anyone wants call after 7 tonight I'll be home. Ta tas...
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[01 Aug 2004|02:31pm] |
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Wahoo...isn't this such a fun Sunday...NOT... I worked until about 12:00 or so which wasn't that bad but then came home to 3 dogs, 2 cats, and a crying baby...so yes ONCE AGAIN I had to babysit the person who is suppose to be taking care of me...what a life. I loved how I get screwed out of everything now just cuz (insert name here) wants to have "fun" and fuck off. (If you know me well you know who I'm talking about). this just gets down to my bones, I get shafted for EVERYTHING, and not only that but I get to sit here and do nothing cuz the person who said they would hang out today is off getting food for another 2 hours with other people. (when I get out of work the same time EVERY sunday) It must be nice to do this and that with your friends but never try to do anything with other people (like me) but hey don't expect you to. I could just be over reacting but why then does it seem like it happens every time...::shrug::...who knows? Well whatev I'll just be here or maybe I'll go get food too...meh
FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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